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Sunday, October 21, 2012

Dad's Stone Brings Sense of Closure

Dad's Grave at Clive Cemetery
Dad chose to buried at the Clive, Alberta cemetery.  That he should be buried in Clive was one of the only direct requests that he had made in his will.  There really weren't a lot of requests or directions in his will so this was very important to be honored.

I believe he chose this spot because he loved the area with its rolling hills and canola fields of yellow against the azure skies of the Alberta prairie.  One could only feel free here and enjoy the cool fresh air.  It is also the place where the bulk of his children live today.  Jane, Jennifer, Amy, and Derrick all live within 20 minutes of this site.

For me it is important that this site is marked by the grave stone.  It is a link to my father in that it is the last known place he occupied here on earth.  In another sense as Executor of his will it marks a profound sense of closure.  It took about a year to the day of his passing to have this stone installed.  In taking on the task of Executor I had a special link to his last affairs.  As the administrative tasks on the checklist came to completion I felt that I was loosing something that kept him alive in a sense.  As long as his taxes were left to be done I had something to do.  Something that kept him apart of the living.

Now that the stone is in place we have a place to visit.  A place to remember.  Please stop by anytime you feel compelled to do so.

JP Nick Moraal Singing With The Angels1935 - 2011
Close up of Stone.  Couldn't get rotated properly


Derrick and I chose "Singing with the Angels" because, Dad was always singing.  I could easily imagine him peering into eternity and looking forward to singing with the angels whether he's there now or waiting to be there.

Jane tending to the site
We would like to extend a special thanks to Wade Shackleton who also visited the site on the first snowfall of the year.  Wade was so kind as to plant some grass seed on the site that we look forward to seeing grow in the spring.  I remember Dad was always looking for a small farm.  One time we drove around in the late fall and during the early snowfall looking at properties.  The ground was covered in muck and snow.  It was a fond memory and this area being Wade's home town brings back those special times when the kids were young and we are all a family.









Jane and Derrick Visiting







Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Uncle Dirk has Passed Away

My father's brother - my Uncle Dirk has passed away this past week.  I really wanted to fly down for the memorial, but I thought it would be weird to pop in out of nowhere.  Most of my extended family hasn't seen me in many years.  Then there would be the awkward time to reintroduce myself and visiting at a time when grief and memories of an Uncle I don't have a lot of memories of should be the focus.  Fortunately I have a cousin I remember as Bert who is gifted with the camera who taped the service and posted it to our cousins page on Facebook.

The memorial struck me for a couple of reasons.  One, Uncle Dirk had a close and life long friend who did a beautiful job of recounting their special and incredible friendship.  His memorial was so vivid I felt I came to know Uncle Dirk in a special way through the eyes of a dear friend.

There was something else that moved me.  While I listened to the service and saw the faces of loved ones that emerge from behind the sands of time something about my father came forward.  Hearing the stories framed a side of my father I had never seen or had forgotten about.  The family that surrounded him and made him who he was.

Who my father was was definitely misunderstood by me.  I didn't have his brothers and sisters and their friends as a frame of reference.  That reference has helped me understand that my father's dreams and tears were shared in some way by his family and ultimately his mother and father.  You can see Oma and Opa's fingerprints not only on everyone that I recognize in the video, but everyone I hold dear here in Alberta and ultimately in myself.

I am so very grateful to have this connection through my cousins.  I don't want to get too emotional on people I don't know too well, but I have to say they have re-written for me some memories of my father and who he was.

Thank you.

Friday, March 2, 2012

He Stopped Loving Her Today

My Mother (Tina van Engen) and Father Nick Moraal circa 1960
This happy photo was taken about the time my parents were dating.  I am not even a distant thought being the youngest of five.  They were happy in this photo and I believe they loved each other.  How could I even begin to describe his emotional life and I suppose I won't even try.  Though he and I talked about this period in his life sometimes at his insistence and more than I would have liked.  He loved her to the point that he never loved any other woman as much even though their marriage ended in divorce in 1987.  Right or wrong he never truly let her go.

I believe there is only one song that we often sung together that truly fits his circumstance.  We often sang it as a bit of play on his broken heart.  Funny because the words of the song were true.  He could joke about anything.

  Being that my father had heart disease we often jested about his ultimate demise.  This might sound cruel to the observer, but that's what our relationship was like.  When he was in the hospital with his first by-pass surgery more than twenty five years ago he was a joke a minute.  He joked about the pain in his chest.  It was his way.  He said that the only way to cure this pain was to drop something on his foot so he'd be distracted from the pain around his heart.

We'll I suppose I caused him some pain in his life, but I can't see it being enough to distract him from his broken heart.  So Dad if my views on your life and your divorce from Mom hurt you a little I am sorry.  And not that I wish to have, but maybe if it distracted from your deepest hurts I might have helped you.  I wish I could have made you understand that life goes on if we choose to, but I can't judge you for not letting her go.

Dad I am singing with you...



Friday, February 17, 2012

The Kweekschool Voor Zeevaart 1948

On board Prince Hendrik Leiden circa 1948
The Prins Hendrik was a school ship that my father is standing on board sometime around 1948.  He would have been 13 years old.  He was the one standing to the right of rather dopey looking chap with his tongue out.  As near as I can tell the ship is still in Holland today and used by the Kweekschool Voor Zeevaart.  I have sent an email to the institute requesting to send this photo to identify the ship.  You can see the two links below.  One link is for a 360 photo.  If you pan left from the front of the doors of the school the ship is moored right in front.  I believe this is the ship.

The other link is for the school webpage.  My father spoke of his experiences in boarding schools like this one many times.  He was only thirteen.  He spoke of some of his boarding experience there which was mostly making his way in the world for the first time.  Being so young and subjected to some of the realities of life apart from his family around that time helped to shape his character.  No doubt his experiences at the school had an impact on his entire life.  It's a pretty nice school today with lots of history.  A history that was paved by my father, his classmates, and the schoolmasters generation after generation like waves of the sea.

In a breath I can imagine my father being life like in the photo.  The cool breeze from the sea.  The warm morning sun on his face.  The loneliness and the comradery of being surrounded by his schoolmates.  His hopes and dreams.  There he was innocent and naive with his entire life outstretched before him.  The reality was that he was longing to be with his family.  He wanted to make everyone proud.  The conditions of World War II Europe were that this school was an opportunity and relatively close to Leiderdorp where he was born.  He showed so much promise so he was sent away to learn a trade.

I thank him for coming to Canada in some small way.  But, in another sense he might have profited more had he stayed in Holland and took advantage of this early training.  He no doubt would have advanced in the ocean faring trades such as transport or working with the canals.


http://www.360cities.net/image/kweekschool-zeevaart-prins-hendrik-leiden-netherlands#294.96,-0.01,45.3

http://www.vok.nl/content/84/Welkom/Welkom.html



Sunday, January 15, 2012

The Jacob van Heemskerk 1939- 1970

Photo from my Dad's albums  Jacob v. Heemskerk
The Jacob van Heemskerk was launched in 1939 and sold for scrap in 1970.  "During the war the crew felt that she was blessed and gave her the nickname Oude Jacob (Old Jacob).  She received the reputation that not a single convoy would be lost when she was on duty".  See Wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/HNLMS_Jacob_van_Heemskerk

According to the service record my father Nick was most likely stationed on the ship while it was in use as a barracks for those training in the North Sea.  Dad often spoke of the notorious rough waters of the North Sea.  His adventures included taking the wheel in the roughest seas and docking the ship at port.  He was a highly skilled seaman.  I remember how is face would light up when he described driving the ship rising over the swells which he emphasized from under his mustache with a woompf as he slapped his hand out in front of him.  You could see the cold wind blasting the sea water over the bow of the ship as he spoke.  He would often wear a toque that rested atop his head just over his ears and his eyes would flutter beneath his extra folds of skin.  His tattoos faded and blue flashed on his arms from under his white muscle shirt.  Sometimes his enthusiasm made you crave the mist and wonder what was out beyond what you could see.

I think there was something in the character of this ship that could be found in the character of my father.  He had a strong propensity for protection.  He shared its name as his first name was Jacobus.  I would also say that no matter what happened not a single one us would be lost in his company should anything dangerous happen.  He had great force of strength, a cunning wit, and piercing intellect that could disarm anyone. Yet he never raised his hand in violence.  The Jacob v. Heemskerk accompanied the ships in transit across the Atlantic yet never sank anyone either, but those who were lucky enough to have her around felt safe and protected.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Eulogy for My Father September 26, 2011

My father was born in Leiderdorp, The Netherlands on March 4th, 1935.  He was born to Dirk and Johanna Petronella Moraal and a noble family of 10 children.  He married my mother Tina van Engen.  He was most proud of his heritage and his own five children Jane, Jennifer, Amy, Derrick and I.

He was married to Tina van Engen for 27 years.  As I mentioned we his surviving five children were the product of that marriage.  But, there is one very dear child yet to mention.  Nicolaas.  Little Nicky passed away at the tender age of 3 years old.  He no doubt awaits my father in paradise.  Being of the Adventist faith my father believed that the soul is at rest in Jesus.  Dad often related that when Nicky passed away his dieing words were "I want some first, I want some first".  We believed that Nicky was staring into the future which for him would be an instant.  In the next instant he would be at the table Christ prepared for him.  Nicky was relieved of his suffering.  That little boy suffered more than any little boy should even be aware, but his greatness was in his faith and that he was assured a place in in eternity with Christ.  May my father join him in the next instant of eternity.  I know that Dad and Mom both loved my brother Nicky and that he will never be forgotten especially since my father is now at rest along side Nicky awaiting the day of redemption.

Dad enjoyed being outside and camping.  He loved the west and often we would took excursions into the mountains.  We had many family get togethers, Dad's brothers came to visit from Ontario, and Mom and Dad took a trip to Holland in 1979.  There were many good times in our lives and Dad most enjoyed simple the pleasures of nature.  He promoted using our imaginations and reflecting on what is important in life and scenery.  He was at peace here in the rolling hills of western Canada.  I believe that is why he chose to be buried near the rolling hills and canola fields around Clive, Alberta.  My fondest memory of my father is driving out to the east country before sunrise and releasing his birds over the sand hills near AlSask, Saskatchewan.  These were the peaceful times of my childhood and I know my father loved the wind as I loved the smell it made in his jacket and his warm touch of approval on my shoulder.  We spent many hours driving around together.

Dad was also from a family of ten brothers and sisters they were Sientje, Johanna, Hun, Arie, Betsy, Dick, Frederika, Nicolaas, Rien, and Beatrix.  He is survived by Dick, Frey, Rien,  and Betsy.  They all live in Ontario.  My sisters, brother, and I often remember them with fondness and love.  One of the sad things about leaving Ontario for Alberta in 1977 was leaving all of our extended family in Ontario behind.  We sincerly wish they could be here today and we know that we are in their thoughts and hearts as they too no doubt greive the passing of Uncle Nick and remember those who have gone before him.  Our love and thoughts go to them as well.

Dad was also enormously proud to have served in the Royal Dutch Navy which took him around the world.  He travelled to places most men of his era could only dream about in some novel about the Orient or Arabia.  He served on mine sweepers, destroyers, and an aircraft carrier.  His most significant adventure took him to New Guinea where he took part in the historic work of preparing the tiny island nation’s waterways and South Pacific harbors.    In fact there were no scientist’s or explorers from the western world that had ever entered the area before the Dutch Navy had completed its work there.  So at that time very little was known about the country and its people.  In the reverse the indigenous peoples had never seen Europeans and no doubt for some this seen was not unlike Columbus landing in the Americas for the first time.  And that truly was unique because there were few frontiers like it left to be discovered in the 20th Century.  It is also unique as history will not likely produce this type of exploration again.   He once told of night time foot patrols in the jungle where he would pass silent faces in the dark that knew where he was, but he was unaware of.  Holding a modern rifle was little comfort to him in the dark nights and cannibalistic region.
Of comfort to me though was a story he told of being stung by a jelly fish while on an exercise in the water.  Delirious he was sick and swollen and near death in the inescapable heat and humidity.  Trying to escape the heat he went above to the deck for some cool night air.  At his most desperate moment in the night he looked up to see the clearest night sky filled with stars and he had a vision of his father’s eyes.  In that moment he felt his father’s approval and love and it was enough to sustain him not only through that trial, but his entire life.  In the jungle my father experienced the greatest joy and the greatest despair, but he always remembered his time in New Guinea and in the Navy most proudly, because it was through these trials he came to know God.
Sometime after his service in the Navy his family decided to emigrate from Holland to Canada. He landed in Canada 53 years ago in October 1958.  He had travelled on the Holland-America line a ship he was quite comfortable on after his adventures in the Navy.  He had intended to become a farmer in Canada.  I suppose he was a sea traveller, but a land lover at heart.  He enjoyed his gardens and took great care of the garden that is still planted in front of Red Deer City Hall.  The city gardens were one of his most passionate tasks in his job as a maintenance man for the Alberta Government.
He was most inspired by the Psalms and his faith in Adventist doctrine.  I had an opportunity to speak with him recently where he told me of his desire to be with Christ.   I feel that the most important thing to convey is that he was at peace with the Lord in his last days.  He had truly accepted Christ’s redemption into his heart.  I know that he would want us all to know this and that in turn he would want us all to seek the Lord and healing in our hearts as well. 
Never the less kicking against the pricks I stubbornly defied my father in our last conversation.  I asked him “show me one passage in the entire New Testament repeats and requires us to keep the fourth commandment”.  He said under his breath “I am glad you asked because I show you a whole book”. At the time he never really answered my question he was going to get back to me sometime this week.  I was quite satisfied with that because I was certain that I was right.  There is no passage and with that we said goodnight and hung up the phone.  I had forgotten this conversation until now as I write this.  I wanted to do some research for this eulogy so I opened my Bible.  It opened with no turning of the pages by my hand to Hebrews and my eyes were immediately drawn to chapter 4.  Which I will read to you...
                                Hebrews 4:1-16
Dad thank-you for getting back to me…You are in our hearts forever.

Hurt by Johnny Cash


To me my Dad was Johnny Cash.